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Name: Lisa
Country: Canada
Metro: Burnaby
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Saturday, December 29, 2007

darling, i hurt.

so for the past few hours all i've wanted to do is break down and cry. not like little tears
but huge like massive crying attack. first i start off saying one thing which is completely true
and you know it and you flip at me and turn it around so it's my fault. and i hate myself for the
fact that you make me feel like sucha complete idiot that i actualy still  hold on to you tightly with
tears running down my face because of you yet i'm still grasping you as hard as i can because
when i feel upset i always think i'm going to lose you. and i'll do anything so that that doesn't happen.
and then i think of upcoming events and how you never even told me about it i heard from other
people when those kind of things should have been decided by us. and how those things in the past
have landed you in trouble and yet i said nothing. did nothing. and pretended i didn't care when really
it was actually feeling like someone was killing me inside. and while i freak out about wanting to
not lose you i think of your words "in the end somebody has to get hurt" and that kills me because
i know that the person will be me. as much as you tell me its not necessarily true. i know that's a lie.
i know it will be me. and as i lay there grasping you as tight as i can trying to hold on with the tears
slipping down my face. you don't notice my grasp, nor do you notice my tears, you're too wrapped
up in yourself.


Monday, September 04, 2006

Avon

It's been about 7 months and five days since avon has passed and there is not a day that goes by that i don't think about her or miss her. She was super special. We weren't bestfriends kind of close. but she was the type of person i could pour my heart out to without worrying about being judged or having everything iv'e said repeated to someone else. She was the special kind of girl that only comes around once in a while. The thing that really sucks is that i havn't felt her around me yet. like i havnt been visited (well not that i know of) by her. which i'd love. i wish i could talk to her one last time...maybe it could've helped...

i love you avon
i'll never forget you
darling angel.<3


Friday, February 24, 2006

Turn Off The Lights

Jeffree Star:

This is Jeffree fuckin' Star
and this is a big FUCK YOU to all you jealous bitches,
that get mad that I'm fucking your boyfriends..
An don't get mad that they suck my dick..
an then they make out with you after.. HOE!!

[chorus]

Tha Producer:

Girl your boobies look real nice to me tonight
Let's have a pillow fight, I know you're tight

Thats when we turn off the lights

Girl if you're from orange county I'll fuck you right
and J-dog might, If I'm nice

Thats when we turn off the lights


Undead


J-Dog:

I be the J to the D, girls call from OC what are you doing?
I'll fuck you in your new Denali!
What a change.. cuz I fuck girls in alleys.. behind the Beauty Bar,
lets see how far we can go on a sexual safari
I got a dick like Kareem Abdul-Jabari
Now lets pray, go all the way,
your boyfriends gay, got his truck raised.. ain't I right?
Hey Shady.. (what?) let's have a pillow fight..
I'm a sex robot sent back from the fucking future
FUCK GIRLS DEEP, STICK IT IN THEIR POOPER

[chorus]

Charlie Scene:

I'm like the Brad Pitt of scene movies
Take off that shirt and let me see them B boobies
I like C boobies, D boobies, Z boobies..
sad boobies, mad boobies, clean boobies, mean boobies
I get pissed when the haters try and cock block
I get drunk an touch Tila in her hot spot
It's Charlie Scene, let me drink from your flask,
put on my mask and fuck you in the ass
Hey Charlie, how many girls you takin' home tonight?
My dicks sinned so much it should be crucified like Jesus Christ
BEEP BEEP hey, you girls need a ride? GET INSIDE!
I pull out my skin sword on the dance floor
rub it on your butt cheeks and watch it transform
You BETTER put out, DON'T MAKE ME HATE YOU..
Or I'll do the Michael Jackson and I'mo RAPE YOU!

[chorus]

Hey what is that? Is that a guy or a girl?
HEY FAGGOT!

Jeffree Star:

Shut the fuck up, you want me..
Bitches get mad that I swallow more cum than they can
Wanna give me a hand? Cuz I'll deep throat your dad
Then he'll cum on my face.. before I go on MySpace
An every guy wants my lipstick smeared on his nutsac
Let's play Barbie and shove Ken's dick in my ass..
Or you can be R. Kelly an pee on me
Just don't get it on my plastic surgery
And then I'll beat you like I did that bitch Stevie
You think that's funny?
Watch me eat Forbidden's fat pussy..

[chorus]

Jeffree Star ad libs over chorus:

Fucking cunt.. lick my pussy.. fucking cunt.. eat me out bitch!
Lick my pussy.. sit on my face daddy... FAGGOT!


<33 Hehe awesome song!


Monday, February 13, 2006

Here Goes...

Well tonight it will be two weeks since Avon Passed away. I'm a lot better now than i was before. Before i'd cry at the mention of her name or sit in a corner listen to music and ignore everyone, and push away anyone who tried to talk to me. Now i just tear up a bit if i hear people talking about her death. The song "I will follow" makes me cry, i cant stand the thought of wearing a necklace and i try not to think about it. I just dont think that this should have happend. i keep thinking and wondering if there was anything i couldve done. I knew she was depressed and was feeling this way but i didnt know it was that bad or anything. i dont think that anyone knew but i still have that feeling in my stomach that i couldve done something and i am partially at fault. Everyone still keeps telling me.: she made the choice, she wanted out, it would've happend sooner or later. Well woop dee doo. like that helps how i feel at all. It doesnt. I miss her so much. Like seriously. She was so sweet. like a sister i could tell her anything and she'd understand. She was beautiful. Had lots of things going for her. Awesome actress and down to earth. She never cared what other people thought of her. Her mohawk made her stand out which she loved. She was special. i dont think she realized how much people cared about her. People who didnt know her at all were wishing theyd even gone up and talked to her. She loved everyone around her and they loved her aswell. i guess their love wasnt enough.  I remember the first time she ever went to subway..she was so happy. and her tellign me about her beautiful new dress (red w/ blk polka dots) that was size 11 but she loved it so she bought it and sewed it in herself lol. and when she was deciding whether to shave her head to a mohawk and i told her she should.
I L O V E Y O U A V O N
Forver&Always
LostButNotForgotten
<33

Rip Avon Nelle Tubana
July.12/1988-January.30/2006

She was 17. Thats too young to die. She had her whole life ahead of her.
I will always miss her and never forget her. She impacted my life
in a way that nobody else could. She taught me not to care
about what other people thought of me an to just keep
going and to never give up. She was special and
She always will be whether shes here on
earth or somewhere else. She was
an angel and she'll be watching
over us to make sure that
everything will be
all right even if
shes not gonna
be here to
watch
us




Saturday, January 07, 2006

So Freaking Bored.



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